kistha: (Default)
Today was my first photo shoot, and I was there as the makeup artist for the husband's next book cover for Amazon. The make up requirements were simple, I brought two train cases and an extra bucket of stuff and until the last model's last part of the shoot I had only used four items. Then there was a call for bruised knuckles. YAY! The students who were there learning photography stuff said "Wow, that looks really good. How do you know what that looks like." LOL! Bonus that I did it out of eyeshadow alone.

It went swimmingly, and fast.

It felt really good to go do something, feel productive and competent and have a blast with a bunch of people I just don't' get to see very often. While absolutely no drama happened. YAY!

And then there was ice cream and flat bread, and it was glorious.

I'll maybe show some photos when we get the proofs....if I get the OK.

Also I'm going to try and write here once a week. Wish me luck.
kistha: (Self)
Once I lost most of the weight I realized I could go back to other dance classes, now that I was no longer obese, and was just chubby I wasn't afraid of the leotard anymore, not happy mind you, but it was doable. I added Ballet and modern into my weekly routine. I wanted both twice a week, but ended up at first with Ballet once a week and then added modern twice a week. Ballet was (and frequently still is) humbling. Modern is mostly good, but since they are both visual led dances, I'm slower than I'm used to being. Now I'm doing three hours in Ballet and still only two in Modern. Group classes are hard to find and are all over the damn place. I'm in Redmond, Bellevue, Greenlake and Cap hill.

Doing the summer showcase at the studio and having Grant let me build out the story arc, and help choreograph brought back very fond memories of the dance I choreographed and danced with Sam back in the day at Western. So many mental doors flew open. So many stories I wanted to tell...but ballroom is kind of restrictive. It's really taught and used as social dancing for fun or competition for perfect technique. There really isn't any call for story based performances for ballroom, unlike Ballet, Modern, Jazz....pretty much every other kind of dance on the planet. During the choreography for the summer showcase I was listening to a song called Sail by AWOLNATION while doing dishes and started dancing around with a bread knife (you know like you do). A story of a serial killer and her victims popped up. I worked on it for a bit, and then put it on the back burner. It simmered there, and every time I heard it, it became more defined, and more complex. I now need a company of dancers, and a complex remix of the song. Technical stuff pops up like UV lighting, cords, and props. But the more I focused on what I would want in the actual steps, I realized I just didn't have enough knowledge. Then Grant was leaving and I was getting tired of the drama and money crap at the studio, and I realized that I had put off dance once when I was 13 when I was told that I was too old to take Ballet, there was no point since my bones had fused. I put it off again when I was in early my 20's because Evergreen didn't work out on the first try, and they said to go to Cornish anyway. Then I got fat - and the dream died until Ballroom popped up. Sure I took Hula, and that was great - but ballroom is where I found that passion and a place to express it, but now I'd out grown what it had to offer creatively. I wasn't going to let this slip past me again, and if my body sabotages me again, well it'll happen while I'm out getting my dream goddamn it.

So I started looking for ways to get all the pieces and knowledge I wanted. I looked into getting it piecemeal in classes. I talked with my Modern instructor, and looked around. The answer I got everywhere was I can just go to a studio and start making shit up on my own, or I need to get a dance degree. I already know I don't know enough to wing it past maybe one or two small pieces here and there. Then I looked for schools, and there are only four:

Evergreen - which tells you right off that if you want a degree based in the classical forms you should go to Cornish. Also an hour and a half away.
UW - which doesn't give a shit about you at all, and only has three classes total for Choreography for the entire degree (and I'd have to go through the whole AA portion) or Audit for the same cost, with no labs ie studio time.
Western - Comprehensive, but you have to complete the basic AA, and then you can be nominated and audition for the BFA in your Junior year..Also an hour and a half away and don't really want to go home.
Cornish - A four year program all dance all the time, with a choreography track and is so small you must audition to get in.

Realizing that the only place that really works for me is Cornish was scary. Looking at the audition requirements was enough to make me realize that there was no way I could get in. I'm old (by dancer standards I'm approaching the end of my career, and if I was in Ballet it would have been over for roughly 9 years) and I'd be competing against 18 year olds that have been doing this since they could walk, and I must have intermediate Ballet to even audition.

I had a bit of a breakdown. Actually I had a pretty big one, the "just kill me now I'm too old for anything obviously, why get thin and get the dream if I can't have it - too old, too goddamn late" kind. Then [ profile] dthon who is a fucking Cheerleader Pollyanna of Stubbornness pointed out that he knows the head of the dance department of Cornish, and he thinks she'll remember him. I wailed and whined and then had him ask if there was anyway I can get what I want anywhere else maybe. Do they Audit? Other Schools that I don't know about? Private programs? Ultimately she said that I could totally go to Cornish - if I get Intermediate Ballet, and that while my age won't disqualify me the thing that drives out most older students is the "sustaining the energy demands of 5-6 hours/day of dancing, and tolerate studying with immature 18 year olds.". Add some more wailing time with a side of fucking horror because for me Ballet is HARD and how long is that going to take? I started thinking really hard about it and how bad I want it.

I ran the idea across a couple of people - a few strangers, and a couple close friends over the last two months. While I'm explaining that obviously I'm batshit crazy, I'm really thinking doing this. So far everyone's reply has been "THAT'S AWESOME!" I keep explaining that I'm insane, and that it's hideously expensive, I don't know how long the ballet is going to take, and dude I'm already old and it won't become a paying gig. Everyone still thinks it's awesome and I should go for it. One person who has a dance degree told me that she thinks that with all my creativity I'll be awesome at my long term goal (more on that later.)

Then as Grant and I choreographed and performed our last showcase (it went OK, not awesome but it was done in a freakishly compressed time frame) I realized this is really what I want to do - tell stories through dance. I just have to have the pieces to do it. Losing Grant - the one person I have who's willing to work with me to choreograph and do lifts, I was just bereft. I can't give this up. So on Tuesday I talked with a ballet guy who after his ballet career went to Cornish and got his degree and he thinks that I should be able to get through intermediate in a year, maybe a year and a half. This makes it doable.

So I'm going to try. I'll be auditioning for Cornish next year, probably February 2015 for fall of 2015. My ultimate goal? Build a Company and perform with them for as long as I can, and then keep on choreographing. I'm going to take all the pieces I have and make stories. One way or another. Thank the gods I'm a stubborn bitch with a high pain tolerance, right?

As Grant was leaving teaching, and one more unbelievable money issue at the studio (asking me to pay for the showcase I was performing in) I left the studio, Saturday was my last night. I'll be keeping ballroom - with Miss P, the occasional Nathan and a new studio when we get back in February, but it won't be my main focus. I'm doing three ballet classes and hopefully picking up two private instructors. My Pilates instructor is already starting to work with me on my feet for pointe work which isn't required, but once I hit intermediate it's the next step and I've always wanted to do it. So I am. I need to cram in another Modern class in too at least, since the audition is at the intermediate level for both.

So there it is. I'm going for my dream. No regrets, right?
kistha: (Default)
My life it's been busy here are the quick highlights:

I've been working on dance and have accustomed myself to Miss P's leading, and have been making much progress. I have completed the first half of Bronze (receiving an A in both tests) and am now doing what they call "Silver Amalgamation" and have added Cha-cha to my majors. At this point the only thing I'm missing is Rumba and The Meringue - and while I'm OK with learning Rumba (we did that for my wedding) I despise the Meringue. Soon I'll be moving to Silver (two more tests to go) and that will be awesome.

Miss P and I are getting along swimmingly, which is good and I'm trying to come up with a good dance idea for the spring showcase. I have one awesome idea for a Tango, but because they are not having a fall showcase, I won't be able to take the Tango slot until next fall. Total bummer, it's an awesome idea. So if you can think of a song that'd be good for two girls, that fits a ballroom dance that isn't a Tango, Waltz or Samba and isn't objectionable (for example Lady Marmalade was OK, but apparently U + Ur Hand is not) let me know.

Well, I'm still doing about 5 hours a week of Ballroom dance, and most weeks I do Yoga for 20 minutes 5 times a week. I lose weight, I gain it back, I do the twist...

Really it's all up in the air and is still totally random. *sigh*

Social Stuff:
Have managed to see some people, lost touch with others. It comes it goes, but we're probably more social than we've been in a long while. Am working on a new project for a monthly event - and it's going well - but more on that when it solidifies. Have been more crafty thanks to [ profile] winifred's awesome craft night - hmmm maybe I should make icons today...

Well, it's me, so of course there's this category. We almost made it a whole year without anyone dying, just short by a month and a half. We lost a moderately distant family member, but the drama around it is out of control and is hurting people close to me, and that totally pisses me off.

I've seen some movies, most of them were good. Inception wasn't the ground breaker for me that it was for most people - but it was good. Salt was a fun ride, but not deep. Toy Story 3 - which while good, had a whole death section I could have totally done without. Looking forward to HP 7 - although I still can't fathom why they split this book. I'm cautiously looking forward to the next Narnia too.

And a recommendation:
I've never read 9 Chickweed Lane, but they ran a story that was a solid arc which started in Nov of 2009, ending just days ago - and it is so awesome, I can't even tell you. I cried, I wondered, I laughed, I gasped. It is available here and if you like a good story with awesome art you should go read it immediately.

In closing I'm hoping I'll start updating here more regularly. I'm still reading though....
kistha: (Default)
Last night we went out with [ profile] sgoilear and his wife C to finally pay them back for the time and effort put into the birthday surprise computer. Their choice of restaurant is traditionally Morton's Steak House. I swear, dinner there is like two days worth of food. So good though, and well worth it. It was great to hang out about and talk, and they finally (shows you just how fubar'ed we've been) got the nickel tour of the house.

So today I got up, did yoga, then went and got Curves out of the way, and later tonight I have dance - an hour private lesson (please let it not be too 'brisk'...) and then another hour doing a group lesson.

I also sent out some overnight mail.

Yep. Go me. (YAWN) What I could really use is a nap.

Also, I've tried Glee and been sucked in. Well, we've been sucked in, more accurately. So, now I need lots of reruns so I can pick up the last half of the first season so I can have more GLEE! NOW! Not later in September when the whole season comes out on Blu-ray.

Um...if anyone happens to have those pre-recorded or anything...*makes hand sign* Call Me.

Maybe soon I'll have a not life list post and instead something entertaining or thoughtful...

And then the world will end.

I think I need a dance or exercise icon.....hmmmm


Nov. 20th, 2009 12:39 pm
kistha: (Bleeding)
Cue the sinus sore throat ick.


I hate being sick like this.

Husband seems to be fighting something (probably this) off. So much for getting stuff done this weekend. (Needed to hit the train store for lights, and Michaels for Sculpey, and start work on parts for the costumes. Was hoping to try and get together and craft with [ profile] winifred. Bugger.)

Need to pick up survival stuff today and then spend the weekend in blanket wrapped medicated TV watching video game haze.

It's so much more fun when you do it to be lazy.
kistha: (Default)
Took Mom to the doc, and the bone marrow biopsy was totally clean.

No virus, fungus, bacteria, cancer, pre-cancer cells, tumors, toxins or anything. And one really, really weird disease left that is treatable, and he's going to test for that.

K. So, now what?

Blood draw every week for three months, trying to find out if her blood counts crash and then she gets the infection, or the infection arrives first and crashes her blood counts. Let's hope we catch the next one before splash-down.


Let's hear it for no cancer at least!
And for being home again. It's nice.
kistha: (Girl Talk)
In the end the house was cleaned the guests arrived, and absolute havoc happened with the XOBX connections, creating no less than three trips to Fry's and the last trip ended with a dud Ethernet cable. That was about when the swearing hit full volume and long length. In the end we used the shorter cable and had the guest's XBOX precariously perched - but it worked and much play was had by the boys. Lots of 2AM late nights. Good talk, good food and some costume based crafting trips for us girls. (Oh, and they brought us a wireless router, so now we have that for those guests who are laptop happy.)

Random good luck roll - getting lights at the Lowes next door, I finally found lamp shades for those damn lamps in the Library!

They are off back to home, but we had a great time and I can't wait to do it again - maybe for just a bit longer next time.

Just going to try to stay on top of the house work going forward. :)

PS - Thanks for the offer [ profile] twilight2000, but I didn't get back to LJ until after the deadline. :)
kistha: (Bleeding)
The stupid "stainless-steel" fridge killed me.

Fuck it.

We can finish the rest of it tomorrow.

Sure we can.We have to - all that's left is the rest of the kitchen, some mopping, and all the rooms that the guests will be staying in! LOL

Nothing like hysteria, is there? I hate you, fridge I hate you.

I'm going to go watch TV.
kistha: (Big Daddy - Little Sister)
We have company coming this week. The house is a certified "Pit of Despair" and we're busily cleaning it in preparation for our guests.

Today, very late we started in the library or "pool room". Which is fine and all - except for the fact that we've finally accrued enough un-shelved books to require us to re-shuffle all of the book cases. Three hours later and we've dusted and adjusted two shelves. TWO out of six. I suppose I should point out that the shelves are 6 ft tall and just under 2ft wide. But, on the good news side, the reference section with all of the BIG books is done, and the ones that needed the most adjustment. I hate reclassifying books. Next is mostly paper backs and comics to be done after dinner, that at least, should go faster.

And then tomorrow I can dust everything else, Windex the windows and mop. And then we move to the next room....

Good thing they are coming late on Friday. :)
kistha: (Default)
So. I quit writing much on LJ, largely because I couldn't think of anything that wasn't so fucking depressing and horrific to write about, and after a while you just don't want to torture other people with the way you are being trampled.

Things seem to have quieted down in our lives. (Hang on while I knock on wood - there, done.) And so I'm going to attempt to start writing again.

I know the three of you that actually follow this journal will be shocked and surprised.

So, we'll see. Here's hoping that I can get back to using this the way I wanted to.
kistha: (Sadness)
Today Ankhet who's been a bit peaky for the last month or so, was lethargic and breathing really heavily (since we have air conditioning, we knew it wasn't heat related) this afternoon and so we took her to VSC, the emergency vet we use.

After a look, an emergency ultrasound, fluid drain from the chest cavity and an x-ray - the diagnosis was carcinoma that had made very heavy inroads on the liver and the lungs. A month of survival on the outside (the rainbow and unicorn outside limit) and even after the fluid drain she wasn't breathing easily, she was laboring to breathe, not massively, but enough to look uncomfortable.

We decided based on Ankhet's personality, that she'd rather go now, while it was just uncomfortable. And, when Dr. Polly said that she could be behind that decision, that it was bad - we knew we had made the right decision.

We spent some time petting her, and then had them give her the injection. We held her, and loved her.

And now she's gone. I'm going to miss her so much.

You can see her in her album here.
kistha: (Girl Talk)
So, we ended up visiting [ profile] cheriezel and family to pick up some custom made skirts, and more importantly get to spend a quick hour with the family having "brunch". Talked about movies, cartoons, and how they want to start a game night. It was a nice visit, and all agree we need to do it more.

Then we dashed home, let out the dog, and headed out to the Queen Mary for tea with [ profile] trenchwench where we covered the four jobs she has, how she knows she still owes [ profile] cheriezel some yard work, future projects, tea cup hunting and more. It was so nice to see her - we never get to see her either. Six rolled around, so fast as usual, and we were left saying our farewells at the sidecar - sadly she was off to a family get together, while we were off to one of her favorite bars (as it turns out) to see Wynne C Blue and her Troublefakers.

Got to the bar super early, and stuffed with tea. Ordered obligatory drinks (ACK! More Liquid!) and settled in. The first band Honeybear was really together and tight for a first time outing. (Seriously.) Sadly the sound guy had the guitar up too high, the base too low - and the vocals were hit and miss in the "ability to hear" department. It got really hot, so I went outside and they sounded great out there.

Then, it was time for [ profile] winifred and her band. And man did they COOK. It was a great show, lively, toe-tapping fun and my only regret was that there was nowhere to dance! The sound was good, the songs were great! We picked up the Rock 4 Life International CD that had "Everything" on it. It's on my iPod, and I'm listening (and singing along) constantly. They're going to be playing the Celtic Bayou in Redmond this Saturday at 9 with no cover. I'll be in Vegas, so I can't go. It's a total bummer. I could be eating hushpuppies and dancing the night away to Wynne C Blue and her Troublefakers and Ethan Freckleton

So, the rest of you need to go and eat hushpuppies and take a dance for me. It's a great show!
kistha: (Another Bad Day)
For those that don't read [ profile] dthon's LJ, he got laid off today.

Although we're in a good place for it, it's still one more pile of shit we didn't need.


I'm starting to think that we should just stop looking forward or try to get out and have lives. Every time we do ...We were actually laughing about a minor snafu in the estate stuff this morning and making jokes about the pain-in-the-ass, but it was OK because it's not that bad, and we're getting stuff done, moving forward making plans, trying to get a social life, and air-conditioning, then .....not two hours later, LAYOFF.

It's like if we're not buried in shit the universe isn't happy. What did we do to who, and can it stop yet?
kistha: (Winter Forest)
So, since all the cool kids are doing it - here's some snow shots from the homestead. Behind a cut because they are pretty damn big.

Snowpocalypse 08 )

And there's a fair amount of melting going on, but I hear there's more coming. It started snowing yesterday at eleven in the morning and didn't stop until early this morning. I wish I had better play gear for the snow, and didn't have this fucking cold that will not die that I brought back from Disneyland.

At this point I don't know that we'll be making it to B'ham for Christmas. Bad year for it - hope Mom will be OK if we can't make it.
kistha: (Another Bad Day)
So I've updated the Funny and Interesting Links (found here) with Charlie the Unicorn.

It's pretty damn funny - but the thing that just kills me, is it's my cousin M. in a cartoon setting. If you know her ([ profile] sgoilear you might want to have the wife watch) it's HILARIOUS.

So, I had to pass these on. (I think the first one's best.)

Charlie Goes to Candy Mountain
Charlie and the Banana King

Also, lots of snow (with more pouring down) and power here, which is OK with me. No fallen trees and no power outages which is certainly a HUGE plus.

And, if I'm honest - I'm in a depressed, crappy, piss, poor mood.

I am however still pleased that I got to work and back Thursday and on Friday (just canceling everything) and dropping off the books on Saturday morning, completing the rest of the Xmas shopping and being back by noon, and that we are home prepared and snug. I love my new tires, and the fact that, yes I can drive in this shit.

The plan is to play games have comfort foods, and try not to spread my anti-cheer.

Oh and happy holidays. Here's hoping next year sucks less.
kistha: (Cute Predator)
Largely because I cut off the tipy top of my index finger last night. Mostly skin, and a fair bit into actual "flesh." Also, I had to trim off the flap, with nail clippers. *sigh* This makes my life much more inconvenient, all because I was impatient with my new mandoline. Don't blame the equipment, blame the spaz who was agitated, sugar crashing, and fucking around with sharp objects ignoring safety for speed. Now that I'm injured and a little more with it, I realize cutting the veggies in question in half would have let me go as fast, and not lose a finger. *sigh* Some days I'm just a wee bit on the stupid side.

Also, after discovering "Only in Kenya" yesterday (and still have it stuck in my head) I also discovered you can make T-shirts! I was so excited! I made this shirt:

Random Posting

But apparently you can't print on the back. So now I'm heartbroken, and I can't type well.

kistha: (Free Tayet)
Last night, Tayet went into final renal failure. After a midnight speed drive to the local emergency vet, we made the decision to stop the suffering. Really he would have passed on his own, but it would have taken longer, and he was definitely in great distress.

More later when I can write about him.

We lost the best cat. One in a billion for so many reasons - the heart of our home is silent.

I am so sick of loss, grief and pain.
kistha: (Sadness)
I'm back home, Mom begins living alone, and I am wiped out. I may have to go back later to help with stuff, but for now I'm home.

I'm going to be pretty quiet for the next couple of days trying to get my shit in order. I haven't really had the time I need to really grieve, and so I'm probably going to be a bit scarce for a bit.

Thanks for all the sympathy.

Love you guys.

Also, too fucking hot.
kistha: (Sadness)
My father died on Friday the 25th of July in a single car accident.

We've been out of town since then staying with my family. Depending on the pet situation, either I or both of us will be returning to help take care of things and my mother. I will only be here until Tuesday and we are trying to get things in order quickly (pay bills figure out animal stuff decide if [ profile] dthon is staying or coming back with me) so we won't be out and about. I don't know how much in contact I'll be via email and LJ once I go back, but I don't think it will be as much as when I'm at home.
kistha: (It's FUCKED)
This is the mantra that I repeat to myself nearly daily. Definitely weekly.

It's about the house.

While I am pleased to be a home owner, and happy to have a house I can call my own, unfortunately find that more often than not, it's one pain-in-the-ass job or disaster after another. This leads to the above mantra. Take this weekend for example -

We spent the entire weekend clearing out the garage. We are about halfway done with getting the "set up" finished. We still need to move boxes to the loft, create and collect and sort and do the "toxic chemical" run and the "dump" run. Going to need to borrow a pickup truck for those, I imagine. (The previous owners were very generous in their leaving objects behind, as well as badly executed remodels, the largest collection being of every cleaning supply known to man.) And, then, sort and store all the tools in a logical manner.

The grossest part was all of the debris that gets in to the garage. Sure it's OK for water and stuff, but we are surrounded and buried in trees and the garage doors are old, and don't seal. So we have tons of spiders, and leaf debris everywhere!

But it just makes it all that much more clear, that the whole garage needs to be renovated. Really, all the way down to the studs. I don't think they insulated the ceiling, and that ceiling is also the floor this office, so it's hard to heat it in winter, and gets very hot in summer. *sigh* Add it to the list. (And why is it that every thing that we need to get done, that we can't do always is 22K? Why?)

Then the hot water tank sprung a leak. As of now, the leak had accelerated to the point where we had to empty the hot water tank. No more showers or laundry for us! Whee. So, until the repair people show up tomorrow "between 1 and 5pm" we're stuck with cold water only. I know bitch, bitch, bitch. But it does mean that I missed my work out today, and will tomorrow as well. I'm sorry - I don't like to stink. The good news here is that it is still under warranty (all hail Sears) and that Vomis' left us the warranty in the first place. Hopefully what is wrong, will be under warranty too, or there goes the money we've set aside for house repairs. *bangshead*

Oh, and my computer started to freeze at random. So I'll have to fuck with that all this week. I'm posting from [ profile] dthon's computer and checking LJ from here.

Add to that, now I have to go to another useless doctors appointment. Bleagh.


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