I'm feeling particularly crappy today

With the last couple of trips out with friends and family out in the sunshine of summer, and yet another doctor's visit coming up mixed with the usual crazy of my family I've been feeling very down.

And while I'm going to try and distract myself so I don't spend the day in the dumps, here's a poem I wrote recently about it all.

Memories in Contrast

I remember when I could play in sunlight
Without fear and pain
I remember when Summer meant swimming and boating
Instead of rashes and heatstroke
I remember when I could work all day and dance all night
Without loosing two days to exhaustion
I remember when I could dance, and fly
When someone could lift me
I remember when I could clean my house
Without being unable to do anything else
I remember when my hair was a mane
Instead of a thin rat tail

I remember when I wasn't sick

I remember when people didn't assume I was lying about
What I eat
What exercise I get
I remember when doctors tried to find an answer
Not just assume this is normal
I remember when people believed me when I said I was sick,
Not telling me to just love myself as I am.